ioi trip

last friday...go out wif my gang + 1 cute guy... bfore we go ioi, we gather at JY house for ADD MATH PROJECT... but the actual thing happen is... laptop, friendster, facebook... omg... ur add math project bcome fs n facebook liao... the day bfore tat day... i ady ask myself... tmr really can add math project?? or talking??haha... i so liao jie all of us... juz 10minute about project thing... about 3 hours is talking + on9...

after tat... bcause too many ppl... JY's dad fetch 7 of us go to ioi 1st before they go register the car learning... 6 of us r sitting behind... yeng?? after tat me, YJ & XD go ioi 1st... then only they go to register the car learning... before JY, ZK, KY & WY come... me, YJ, XD & the cute guy go popular 1st... there, i buy liquid paper n 2 novel... RM30 gone... my heart broken...

when we go wong kok... all ppl r order stick except for me & the cute guy... bcause i like spicy, i order a very spicy de noodle... the cute guy order a yuk ding noodle... when the yuk ding noodle come... bcause the yuk ding is under the noodle... when i ask KY the noodle is who de... she straightly say is me de... so i start to eat... after tat, another noodle come... when the noodle come... i din notice the noodle at all... only noe its bowl very big... when he ask the noodle is who de... only i notice the noodle... when i saw the corn corn thing... i straightly say omg, is me de, i eat wrong ady... bcause he sit bside me... i heard he say : la de worhx... from tis sentence... i noe tat he cannot eat spicy de... haha... i pity him, bcause he nid to finish my spicy noodles... when eating, i always look at him n laugh... me very shuai rite?? haha... i think he scare to me ady...

when we go shopping... only i noe tat he dun noe we all r gal... bfore he come, he think we got gal + guy... y got guy so cute 1?? din ask probably got guy or not... simply promise to come... WY taught him... next time, bfore promise to go anywhere wif fren, ask probably got who go, got guy or not... omg =.="

回忆...

最近，跟一位以前的朋友信息了...以前的我们，是无所不谈的朋友...他们也会拿很多有趣的事情出来与大家分享..会时常坐在一起有说有笑的...在大家当中...我是最小的...他们都好像大哥哥一样照顾我...我们都是华乐团的...因为要筹备比赛的关系...我们每一天都有集训八个小时...虽然很累...但大家都很开心...因为我们能够在一起...一起努力...在这个过程中充满了欢笑...泪水...互相鼓励的声音...那一年，我活得很充实，很自由，也很开心...因为认识了大家，我明白了什么是一起努力奋斗，互相扶持的朋友...

最近情绪一直很不稳定，跟我信息的朋友，大多都成了我的出气筒，我很抱歉...为了我们的友谊，我会努力让自己活得开心的...小华，对不起那晚对你的语气不太好，你生气我了对吧？...煌杰，因为你每次都气我，让我觉得心情更乱了，唯有结束了我们的对话...阿弟，跟你信息，已经没有以前的感觉了，或许是现在的我，已经不是以前的我吧？我知道你在很努力地让我开心，希望我回到以前那个无忧无虑，开朗的活宝，谢谢你...

那晚，当你说我变了时，变得不像以前那样...当我问你以前的我是怎样的时，你说以前的我是一个开朗的傻盈，就像个活宝那样...我觉得很惊讶，我自己心里明白，自己并不是个开朗的女生...可当我回想起中一的我时，的却只能用开朗来形容吧？那时的我，是一个每时每刻脸上都挂着笑容的女生，因为有你们的陪伴，虽然一个人住，但我并不觉得孤单...你们的却很照顾我...知道我一个人住，怕我闷，都会轮流来我家陪我聊天，带我出去玩...有你们的照顾，让我觉得很安全，可以一直当一个小妹妹...

慧慧，我最要好的朋友...在别人眼中，我是他们的活宝...但在我心中，你才是我真真的活宝...跟你在一起，有说不完的话题，我想 “八婆二人组” 的称号，绝对适合我们吧？每当世界哪个角落有我们两人，那儿就会有笑声，这是大家都同意的...你身体一向很衰弱，每次都对我说...晓盈啊，惨咯...我好像要死了...怎样？而我每次都会好像妈妈那样，半安慰半骂地说...死你头！！你不要整天XXXXXXX什么什么的...因为我一向都是比较主动交朋友，在华乐也是，每次你有什么困难，我都会帮组你...有时你又会对我说...我很像大姐，每次有什么东西我都会帮你出头，照顾你...我们之间，没有任何妒嫉，没有任何的陷阱，没有任何的出卖，也没有任何的自私...每次有什么东西，都会把最好的留给对方....我就是喜欢交像你那样没有心计的朋友，有好的就一起分享，有不好的就一起解决...

想着想着，我不禁哭了...我在想，为什么我会变成像现在这样...以前的我，是一个多么天真没烦恼的女生...活得多么的轻松...为什么现在会变成这样？？你告诉我说我一定能回到好像以前那样的...我想了想，只回了你说，不可能的...现在的我已经办不到了...在这里是不可能有天真开朗的人的...

回想起这些...我想，也只能用-人生-两个字来形容这一切吧？

such a no mood day...

today is really bad luck, i hate tat. At the morning, i noe tat he not going to skol,i quite sad when i noe tat. tat mean i can't c him today ady... i miss him... would him do the same thing?? i dun think so n not dare to think too

when me n zk reach skol... i saw all ppl r busying their job... except for me... i feel tat my life is very meaningless... i regret tat i din join the BSMM kawat... tis is my last year in tis skol... n aso my secondary life... i should make my life be more meaningful... but i din do it... i hate myself... i hate myself always do something tat will make myself be regret... include wat i did on him... but wat can i do now??

when i saw the kawat of all the badan beruniform... i hope i'm the one inside of them... practice wif them together... having the enjoy time together... n having the result together wif them... when i saw got ppl faint... i think if tat ppl is me... wat ur response? will u care of me?? or juz like ntg happen??

during the event... when kah heng - my fren n aso ketua rumah hijau fall down... i got the feel tat i want to cry... i aso dun noe y i got tat feel... maybe is bcause tis is my last year in tis skol... i hope my house dun be the last... i very regret tat i din take part in any event... when i saw all of them do their best to win n earn marks for their own house... i hope i can one of them aso... y i become such a meaningless, useless person?? i really found tat i'm the most useless person in the world...if tis year got any kawat competition... i hope i can join it... but how was my studies?? i scare i cannot handle all the activities... i scare i will sick... it's very suffer...

when our gang stand under the kem... got a malay guy touch me!! such a fucker hand!! at first... he touch my pipi... when i turn my head... i din c anything... so i think tat maybe is ppl past by bu xiao xin touch dao... so i din bother... after tat... tat guy touch my leg again... when i turn my head i din saw anything... then i juz continuous to talk... the 3rd time... tat guy touch my shoulder again!! when i turn... i saw him sit down!! tat time i really very angry!! juz straightly scold him ma chao hai... i long time din talk bad word ady... when i very stress n want to say all those words... i still control myself dun say it out... cause i scare i will change to another person... i scare i back to my form 1 style again... tat bu liang shao nv...

after tat... when want gather at the field... i found tat my bag lost!! all my mood gone... i no mood to laugh at all... n no mood to talk wif any ppl... i scare i can't control myself n say something tat very bad to my frens... my 1st novel is in the bag... tat is my 1st novel!!! if i'm a guy... i think i will let the person who steal my bag become cacat...luckily i'm not a guy...

when i come back... i hope tat someone can comfort me... but i noe it won't be the true... someone ady din care of me anymore... i hope it juz zhan shi xin...

i'm back~~

xixi~~long time din care about my blog ady~~the whole holiday din touch it though~~tis will be my 2nd post wif english language~~surprise??

as u all noe... skol reopen~~we all will be back to skol life~~2 months holiday life will end tmr~~how to describe my mood lerhx?? happy?? sad?? scare?? or... when i realize tat holiday is going to end after tis few days... the 1st thing in my mind is... SPM!! omg... the really horrible, scary n %*&(%*&% thing in my life... the most horrible subject... yeah... u're rite... SEJ!!! i really dun noe the whole form 4 SEJ... 1 page aso can't memorize!! how i take SPM?? form 4 aso cannot ady... how i memorize form 4 n form 5?? juz like ask me go to hell only...

yesterday... koperasi got activeties... actually i really want go back n help them de... i really like koperasi job... but the problem is... transport problem again!! my god... i hate tis problem... i want to c how koperasi run tat tousands business...

today... mean bei them go shabu-shabu... i dun noe they hv go or not... but i din go... transport problem again... may be u all will wonder tat y i still hv transport problem... not i get my motor license ady??

ya... i hv get my L license... but i accident 2 weeks ago... my motor get to the motor shop... juz now my mum go n get it back... she say tat tayar aso senget ady... she dun let me went to skol ady... only can take it near my house... my dad... he say dun let me get the P license... tat moment i hear it... i really want to cry... i hv wait it for a very long time... juz a mistake... my dream is gone...

i dun want to think about it ady... but i will follow my mind... nvm... i won't drive motor to skol... but... i will take the P license!! when my skill become pro... only i will drave motor to skol!! i'll wait for it!!!

忙碌的一天~~

今天我过得很充实，经历了很多我人生中从没有过的~~

今天十点左右起身，刷洗之后就开始我这一天的计划了~~

去巴刹，买了一双拖鞋，两双黑袜，一条腰带，一件tube~~

买tube时，那个人拿一些tube给我，我就拿来左看右看，左拉右拉，之后我问了一句很渣到的问题，“不会掉下来吗？”那时真得很怕被笑！！真的很鱼...之后那个人就说这个会掉下来的~~然后就拿了另外一些给我，说这些是不会掉下来的~~那时我心里想...还好我又问，不然等下买了会掉下来的不是浪费钱？？

之后就去买黑鞋~~去时，竟然看到警察！！吓到我...打完针回家时，又看到警察！！警察还horn我，吓到我都不知道要怎样！！买了鞋就去打针~~在药房内等了两个小时，冷到伤风了...等到打针时，等了一下子，好像没感觉，心里就想，“现在医学这么先进了，打针竟然完全没感觉的！！”...哪里知道，其实还没打，当然没感觉...之后打时，觉得麻麻的~~现在左手还在痛！！

昨天打电话问朋友考车牌的L要多久...他说要一个月!!听到我梦想破裂!!本来计划好要骑摩哆去做工的...现在不能了...聊下聊下,竟然聊了一个小时!!我那时是有一个想法，“这次肯定渣都没得剩了...”今天去问,才知道一个月是拿到P牌~~心理一下开心了很多~~

今天的一切，我靠自己的能力完成了~~感觉自己好像长大了很多~~原来十六岁就是要经历这一切~~